I've been trying to compose this post for a full 48 hours now and have struggled with the how and what of it all. Motherhood is one of the most sacred, as well as one of the most difficult and annoying, callings I have yet received in my 46 1/2 years of living.
I've been pondering quite a lot lately on whether or not I have raised my children with the appropriate sense of self and the ability to stand firmly alone in their own knowledge of truth. When I hear a mother say, "My daughters (or sons, or children) are my best friends, I just don't know what I would do without them," I wonder if I have done something wrong. Have I missed the boat?
I don't know what I would do without my children. All of them. They are my greatest blessings. But they are not my best friends. And they are not my best friends because I have taught them to look elsewhere for that gift. I hope, too, that I have taught them to BE that gift for someone else. A real friend. A true friend. A best friend. Those are hard to find. And sometimes hard to be. We, my children and I, do not share that gift. We share a gift that has more value. We share the bond of mother and child. It is eternal. And although I am my children's greatest advocate and fan, and although I would lay down my own life to protect any one of them, I am not their best friend. And I am o.k. with that. Because I am their mother.